Thursday, January 29, 2009 // 8:05 PM
K.S.P. ako.

ngayon lang ulit..ngayon lang 'to..

hai..


here i am..solo flight..sa Coko Cafe..fresh from a walkout scene..
nagbBlog or mas mainam nang sabihin na nagrRant..

AGITATED

that's how i feel right now..

panu ba naman eh nagkapikunan nanaman kami..

i dont wanna go into so much detail kasi lalo lang ako naaasar..

there are days na superlambing niya at ako ang wala sa mood,

there are also days na ako yung nasa happy_mode tapos siya yung nasa walang-pakialam_mode, well, unfortunately this is just one of those irritating days..

days that'd push you to go-home-and-sleep or go-somewhere-else-and-eat-a-lot mood..

she's naturally sweet as i may say but i know not all people would be like this and like that consistently everyday..i understand that..

what agitates me is that i'm doing my best to make her feel better,still,i'm useless as ever..she would never notice the efforts..she would never notice me trying hard to be noticed..wth.?!

hindi ako ganito sa kung sinong tao lang diyan..
heck..
nagpapapansin lang ako sa mga taong hindi ako mabubuhay na wala sila..

family..bestfriend..siya..

hindi ko kailangan magpapansin [modesty aside] kasi alam ko namang kahit hindi ako magpapansin ay may papansin at may papansin sakin..

either sa kakulitan ko..sa kaingayan ko..sa itsura ko..sa porma ko..sa mood ko..sa ugali ko..sa friendster[char.!]..sa katabaan ko..sa kakyutan ko [modesty aside diba] at sa kung anuanu pa..may magkcomment at may magkcomment dyan..

kaso di ko malaman kung bakit may mga taong..uhh..yung mga tao pa mismo na gusto mong makapansin sayo ang hindi nakakapansin sa gusto mong mapansin nila..

asar..that's the best word to describe the feeling..

wala lang naasar lang talaga ako kaya bigla akong napablog ng wala sa oras..

alam ko may kasalanan rin ako,masyado lang akong ma-pride to admit it right now,
yan tuloy namimiss ko nanaman kasi hindi niya ako sinundan nung nagwalkout ako,ayaw niya pa siguro akong makausap o masilayan ang nakasimangot kong pagmumukha..

sige next time ulit..kapag hindi na masyado negative energy ang tinatype ko..



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i am not a blogger..
yet , everything is worth a try.
so, here i am..trying..[hard]
because..
i also have something in mind..
i also have something to share..
i also have something to say..
i also have something to stand and fight for..
and now.. you also have something to read.
am i right or am i right.?
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YOU CAN NEVER DEFINE ME.
jack of all trades master of none...
i can be boisterously loud and be impossibly quiet..
i'm a paradox of my own world and existence..
mixed contradictions and complexities of what's seen and not..
it's like NOT KNOWING YOURSELF.,
a pencil parked on a paper not knowing what to write..

TAKE me as i am or LEAVE me alone.?
it may sound too antagonistic, but for me it makes sense because no one will really stay with you if he/she can't accept the real you..

if you can't stand it, better go than tire yourself with something that is simply hopeless or something beyond human control and understanding or you'll just lose yourself in the process..

one thing i keep in mind: YOU gotta be your TRUE self to be HAPPY.

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