Saturday, May 2, 2009 // 9:21 PM
LOST not FOUND
“Sometimes its better be lost anywhere in this world where you can ask for directions back, than to be lost inside yourself where redemption lies in your hands alone..”
A simple text message I got from a classmate last semester..
A simple text that made a lot of sense to me now not because of its simple logic but because it defined how I live right now..
It won’t be anything new to me if I got lost in a mall, a market, a big school, a crowd or something..
I remember when I was about 5yrs.young, I was with my parents and sisters in a department store at the mall then I got lost in the beam of clothes that hung parallel to each other in long lines..i struggled to run to the end of the racks as fast as I could coz I was a bit afraid, then searched for them in each column..i successfully found them and acted as if nothing happened, as if I didn’t get lost..
I’ve been lost in so many places before and found my way back to the right place, that’s why now I find myself rarely lost because if ever I am I don’t consider myself to be because I know I can ask for anybody to find my way back to the place I’m looking for.
Other people believes that I have a keen sense for directions..street smart they say
It won’t be hard for me to go to some unknown place knowing just the name and the directions to get there..i may be a little lost but I’ll still find my way easily..
Sana ganun din kadali hanapin yung daan pabalik sa sarili mo diba..
Sana may makasagot din sayo ng tama kapag nagtanong ka ng direksyon..
At sana ganun rin kadali sundan yung direksyon na ibibigay nila..
Baka sa pagkalula eh lalo lang akong mawala..
Kaya kong mawala kahit saan kahit walang pera I’ll survive ..pero ang mawala sa sarili [mabaliw.? Haha.!] I mean mawala yung sinasabi nilang “ikaw” at yung sinasabi mo sa sarili mo na “ako”..ewan ko lang..
Ang hirap makabalik or ibalik..kahit minsan alam mo yung tamang daan eh ayaw mong sundan kasi naghahanap ka lagi ng sinasabi nilang “bago”, “adventure”, o dun ka lang talaga nag-eenjoy sa mali..nalunod na..[blop.blop.blop]
Well, in the long run eh hindi mo na rin naman napapansin na bumubuo ka lagi ng bagong “ako” sa bawat pagkakataong mawawala ka, either ikaw lang ang makakaalam or iba lang ang makakapansin at ikaw ang walang kaalam-alam..at sa kada bagong “ako” eh may mabubuong ideya na hilig i-stereotype ng tao kaya nagiging mahirap kahit para satin na tanggapin yung “ako” na tayo mismo nagdesisyon na maging..
para sakin ganun yun, ewan ko lang sayo..
sana naman wala pang nasusuka sa mga nababasa nila..hihi..
nasa mood lang ako i-share ang isa sa mga milyong-milyong ideya na hindi ko ma-share sa mga taong kaharap ko..
bagyo kasi kaya siguro binabagyo rin utak ko..
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