Sunday, May 10, 2009 // 9:45 PM
i'll be back tomorrow
This is a salad-bowl-day for me…
Mixed emotions..mixed happenings..mixed people..
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My day started at around 5:30 am, me, getting ready to go to Naxcz’s apartment to prepare breakfast for ourselves before going to the swimming Jill and El planned.
I got there by about 6:55am..25mins. late..tsk.tsk.tsk..and found her mixing something on the table while Ate Chai sat on the floor while texting not even caring about my arrival..
I helped her through moral support while she was preparing, because I had no idea that she was making pancakes for our breakfast..[naisahan nanaman ako.!] sabi ko kasi ako magluluto ng corned beef..niawr..
Ewan ko lang but I felt real contented while I was there cooking with her..
Nagluto pa rin nga ako ng corned beef pero for lunch na lang..
My very first time to cook for her..corned beef..at nakalimutan ko pang lagyan ng asin..rawr.! stupid me talaga..hai..
The pancake was great and my corned beef sucks without salt..kahit sa luto you’ll see the difference between us..haha..
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The whole time na binabagyo naming yung kusina nila eh Ate Chai was doing her own thing while making fun of her while she was cooking..After a while eh umalis na rin siya for their family outing, but before that eh sabi niya, “Bye Ssang…bye Nagj..”
waho0.! Good mood si Ate Chai dahil for the first time eh binanggit niya ang pangalan ko at naramdaman ko rin naming sincere yung smile niya sa mga panahong yun..
Kasi naman ilang buwan na akong n’t’terrify sa mga titig niya kapag nagkikita kami eh, yung tipong gusto niya akong balatan ng buhay..hihi..
Pero kanina, at least for a while eh I felt comfortable in front of her..[may improvement..whew.!
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After everything, kinain na namin yung pamatay na pancake..at hinintay si El at nagdecide na magdecide na kung tutuloy pa ba sa swimming na mukhang lima lang naman kaming sasama..hai..
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Pagkatapos pagplanuhan na pumunta na lang sa SM eh nauwi pa rin kami sa awa namin kay Jill at Marc na mukhang ito lang ang pagkakataong magkita..haha.! tuloy na tuloy na nga ang swimming ng CC11..[sawakas..]
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Mga ilang minuto pa eh andun na kami sa Spring Valley na 100 na ang entrance fee na dati nung sa ThePillars PEP eh 75 lang..new management daw kasi..sabi ko dapat new pool din..
Ang tanging improvement lang na nakita ko eh lahat ng pool eh may tubig na, may labels na lahat ng bagay pati ang dog house at ang asong si Jordan, nabawasan rin ang katakot-takot na damo at lumot sa paligid..yun..100 na..
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Si Jill, Marc, El, at kaming dalawang pusa ang tanging survivors ng CC11..
May ni’invite din si Marc..si Ekoi at Ben..mga DIA..
Para naman..
Jill + Marc
Niawniaw + Mingming
Ben + El + Ekoi
Wahaha.!
Ayoko na ituloy..tinatamad na’ko..hihi..
To be continued na lang ata kapag may time ulit..
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I’m missin her again..
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“I’ll be back..”
the only thing I can assure her whenever we need to be away from each other..
the only thing I can swear to myself to make it easier for me to be away from her..
The moment I let go of her embrace..damn it..i miss her already..
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Time to get going, a big day coming!
Siyeeht.!
Wala lang..
Ngayon ko lang narealize na ang hirap pala talaga mag-isip..
Mamamatay na’ko..hmpf..heeeeelllpp.! the 16th is coming..niawr..
Labels: nakita k0, RANTics RANTology
Monday, May 4, 2009 // 11:47 PM
Take ME with YOU, keep me PLEASE
Saturday, April 25, 2009 to Monday,May 4,2009
You may be another sad note in my piece yet my song won’t be more complete without you..
Whew! [sigh]
I just got home from the biggest wedding of the year..haha!
Our friend and sister at Church Ate April got married today to our Head Catechist Joel..
Ngayon lang ako naka-appreciate at naiinggit sa isang wedding kasi ngayon lang ako nasali sa preparations and everything in between..enjoy kaso nakakapagod most specially in dealing with the caterers and designing the reception area..
Parang ayoko na nga magpakasal in the future kasi nakakastress pala..
I’ll just tell my groom na, “Magbarkada na lang kasi tayo! Hindi pa magastos..”char.! haha.!
Actually, I was really envious about Ate April’s contentment and happiness at that moment, that’s all..
Well, I don’t have any plans to get married yet, haha.! Wala pa ngang groom eh! Haha.!
Will there ever be someone daring enough to spend the rest of His human existence with me?!
Think twice people..you call that thing S-U-I-C-I-D-E..wahaha.!
Actually I just miss someone so much that’s why I’m trying to divert my attention through making fun of everything..niawr..
[11 days gap before nadugtungan ang draft]
May 4, 2009
Asar..lagi na lang kami nag-aaway this past few days..
Kahit sa text eh hindi namin pinapalampas inisin ang isa’t-isa...hai..
Alam ko madrama, maarte, demanding at selosa akong nilalang, I actually agree dun sa nag-comment sa blog nya na ‘arte naman nyan ni nagj’..pero I thought isa siya sa mga taong lampas impyerno ang pasensya pagdating sa mga kabanuan ko sa buhay..
nabibilang lang kasi sa dalawa kong kamay yung mga taong yun, I just thought she’ll survive..
but I guess I was wrong kasi kung dati eh hindi niya naman pinapatulan ang mga ‘kaartehan at kadramahan’ ko eh ngayon parang napuputol agad yung ‘pisi ng pagpapasensya’ niya sa umpisa pa lang ng pag-uusap/pagdidiskusyon namin..
well, I can never demand for consistency kasi as much as it hurts to admit eh alam ko naman from the start eh mawawalan at mawawalan siya ng pasensya sa isang tulad ko kapag hindi na kami mag-asawa..
kaso masakit lang talaga tanggapin ang katotohanan kasi nga diba TRUTH HURTS..[in-English lang ah..toinx!]
ewan ko lang..siguro yung fact na kaya niya nang gawin sakin yun at ako naman eh takot na takot gawin yun sa kanya kasi takot akong mawala siya..alam ko inuubos ko ang pasensya niya pero hindi ko alam na nauubos pala talaga yun..
pasensya na sa mga nakakabasa.,tanga lang kasi talaga ‘tong nag’type nito..isang tangang kailangan ng makikinig or at least may magbabasa ng hinanaing sa life [if ever meron mang tao diyan na walang magawa sa buhay o na’curious lang]..
I can’t take the distance..NAGA-LIGAO..buti kung nalalakad lang o pwede ring tricycle o jeep..kaso hindi eh..2hrs. sa bus..hai natu..nakakabaliw na ngang mag-isip tapos mag-aaway pa..kamusta naman yun?
Napaka-effective na paraan para i-bridge yung distance diba..
Parang nagtayo ng tulay to connect the gap between two islands pero hindi naman pinakinabangan kasi after itayo nung tulay eh biglang nagka-Earthquake na naging dahilan ng pagdrift nung dalawang islands farther away from each other..so which means nasira agad yung tulay diba?
Nag-agree ka? Kung oo, nag-agree ka sa logic ng isang takas sa mental..Kung hindi, pasensya na, hindi pwedeng hindi, dun ka na lang sa blog mo at magtype ng kung anu-ano tulad nito..
Labels: nakita k0, RANTics RANTology
Saturday, May 2, 2009 // 9:21 PM
LOST not FOUND
“Sometimes its better be lost anywhere in this world where you can ask for directions back, than to be lost inside yourself where redemption lies in your hands alone..”
A simple text message I got from a classmate last semester..
A simple text that made a lot of sense to me now not because of its simple logic but because it defined how I live right now..
It won’t be anything new to me if I got lost in a mall, a market, a big school, a crowd or something..
I remember when I was about 5yrs.young, I was with my parents and sisters in a department store at the mall then I got lost in the beam of clothes that hung parallel to each other in long lines..i struggled to run to the end of the racks as fast as I could coz I was a bit afraid, then searched for them in each column..i successfully found them and acted as if nothing happened, as if I didn’t get lost..
I’ve been lost in so many places before and found my way back to the right place, that’s why now I find myself rarely lost because if ever I am I don’t consider myself to be because I know I can ask for anybody to find my way back to the place I’m looking for.
Other people believes that I have a keen sense for directions..street smart they say
It won’t be hard for me to go to some unknown place knowing just the name and the directions to get there..i may be a little lost but I’ll still find my way easily..
Sana ganun din kadali hanapin yung daan pabalik sa sarili mo diba..
Sana may makasagot din sayo ng tama kapag nagtanong ka ng direksyon..
At sana ganun rin kadali sundan yung direksyon na ibibigay nila..
Baka sa pagkalula eh lalo lang akong mawala..
Kaya kong mawala kahit saan kahit walang pera I’ll survive ..pero ang mawala sa sarili [mabaliw.? Haha.!] I mean mawala yung sinasabi nilang “ikaw” at yung sinasabi mo sa sarili mo na “ako”..ewan ko lang..
Ang hirap makabalik or ibalik..kahit minsan alam mo yung tamang daan eh ayaw mong sundan kasi naghahanap ka lagi ng sinasabi nilang “bago”, “adventure”, o dun ka lang talaga nag-eenjoy sa mali..nalunod na..[blop.blop.blop]
Well, in the long run eh hindi mo na rin naman napapansin na bumubuo ka lagi ng bagong “ako” sa bawat pagkakataong mawawala ka, either ikaw lang ang makakaalam or iba lang ang makakapansin at ikaw ang walang kaalam-alam..at sa kada bagong “ako” eh may mabubuong ideya na hilig i-stereotype ng tao kaya nagiging mahirap kahit para satin na tanggapin yung “ako” na tayo mismo nagdesisyon na maging..
para sakin ganun yun, ewan ko lang sayo..
sana naman wala pang nasusuka sa mga nababasa nila..hihi..
nasa mood lang ako i-share ang isa sa mga milyong-milyong ideya na hindi ko ma-share sa mga taong kaharap ko..
bagyo kasi kaya siguro binabagyo rin utak ko..
Labels: blue thoughts
// 5:40 PM
Sweet Escape
“Everyone is capable of making themselves happy, but happiness is somewhat very different when someone else does it for us..”
Just finished reading the last book of the Twilight Saga. Breaking Dawn..
It took me about a week all in all to read the 5 books..
Pinagtyagaan ko ang Twilight, Midnight Sun [partial draft], at New Moon sa e-book..tapos nakahiram na’ko ng book ng Eclipse at Breaking Dawn sa bestfriend kong si Nicole..whew.! [thanks bezZ.!]
darn..masakit na nga ulo ko..
para sa mga kapatid ko baliw na daw ako kakabasa..
si mama at si papa naman tuwang-tuwa dahil sa wakas eh wala na daw akong babasahin..[as if wala ng ibang libro sa earth..duhh]
ewan ko ba pero I find other parents happy kapag mahilig magbasa anak nila, my aunt’s and uncle’s are very happy at ginagawa pa nila akong good example sa mga pinsan ko kasi mahilig daw ako magbasa..
pero I find it really weird na sa bahay my parents doesn’t encourage reading that much and sa magkakapatid eh si Faye lang ang nakakasundo ko sa pagbabasa..
para kila mama kasi baka daw naapektuhan na studies at nawawalan na daw time sa bahay at hindi na daw alam priorities..duhh..as far as I know I’m not neglecting my duties at home..
sa mga kapatid ko naman eh they don’t find anything interesting in reading books, they prefer watching tv, texting, playing the guitar or using the kompooper kesa daw i-bore ang sarili nila sa pagbabasa tulad ko..
ako lang sa bahay ang mahilig basahin ang kung anu mang mababasa na interesante sa harap ko..
is that insanity? Is that something for them to be worried about? C’mon!
I just enjoy reading books specially fictional novels coz they divert my attention from unpleasant thoughts that keep on bugging me..nawawala ako sa realidad at least for a while..
Sa Twilight Saga eh na-enjoy ko masyado yung love story, yung wholesome romance at yung exciting twists ng story at role ng characters..ngayon lang ako nakabasa ng series..kadalasan eh yung isa-isa lang from a certain author like Paulo Coelho, Mitch Albom, Bob Ong, Og Mandino, etc. tapos yung inspirational books like Chicken Soup chuchu and basta mga inspirational..
Pag fiction kasi eh nalalagay ko yung sarili ko sa sitwasyon, sa wild ba naman ng imagination ko..hihi..
Sa inspirational naman eh wala lang, lessons to be learned na after ko basahin yung libro eh limot ko na rin naman lahat ng nalaman ko sa librong yun so kailangan ko ng mangilan-ngilang re-read para matandaan..haha.!
I find myself really absorbed into what I am reading, that’s why I enjoy reading a lot..
It makes me forget the real world..it makes me oddly happy..
Kailangan ko lang naman pasayahin ang sarili ko kasi malayo ako sa tanging bagay na nakakapagpasaya sakin in a very different way..yung tanging tao sa earth na nag-aabala para sumaya ang isang tulad ko or kahit di man mag-abala pa eh the mere presence is more than enough..
Weird..pero may mga taong ganyan na lang ang epekto sa’tin..nakakabano..nakakamiss..
Labels: nakita k0, RANTics RANTology
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